Conflict within your own mind,
Step back like, what’s happening?
Trapped in my own mind,
Aggravated, agitated –
I’ve got my own cage rattling.
Paranoia poison,
Hearing voices and seeing faces,
Homes becomes houses,
Running from empty places,
Feeling locked in limbo
and my mind has me in stasis –
What’s wrong?
I should ask for the state of affairs,
You used to be so social
and now you’re down here,
Instead of with the over-theres.
I made my own mess
and revelled in the dirt too long to come clean,
Isolated myself and felt flippant when friends I made distant started asking where I’d been –
Like what the fuck do you mean?
Move back,
With every third step take another four,
Sail your ship back and see sure your feet never make home upon shore.
Have your world with the others
and leave me alone,
Bursting my bubble is a clear intrusion of my zone,
An international border –
Locked away with my books far from family,
Trying to educate the ways in which you lose
and find your Sanity –
But with all these words what could I know?
A mere man,
Or boy with plans to grow.
Dreaming of worlds span in silver,
A reality made to let the mind go –
But never a world so simple,
Ours is a world too tarnished to exist in gold.
Black clouds mark my forever,
And if ex marks the spot,
My treasure, forever says never –
My gold is gone,
I’ve lost my happiness too,
Written on weathered paper –
“The last time I felt happy, I felt happy with you.”
But that’s all lost and so I mark my map red,
Tore the pages from my diary,
My emotions should never read,
Keep my thoughts to myself,
With my brothers, never break bread,
Mark my words against the stone beneath which I lay dead.
Cry in silence,
Hell reserves a seven foot hole for the attention seeker –
With a medical prescription in hand,
You have faith in God,
And I have faith my saviour will make my mind weaker.
Picture this –
A blue sky that sweats tears, we all see as rain,
But the sun sees fear,
Pushes lights inside and hopes to paint the sky in colour,
Now we recognise the signs of life,
Yet still fail to see the pain past –
So cry alone and have your moment,
For in our pain and negativity the world screams,
‘You will never be important.’
Solum 